Driving You

Driving You

For My Lenny:"Let's get married again..."

“I've missed you.”

And my heart broke

And healed

And every drop

of stress

And anger

And fear

And loss

Fell away.

And I saw you on our perfect day

with a huge frog in your hands,

And on our wedding day

waiting on the lawn,

And on our spaghetti anniversary day

when Anna “didn't want to interrupt your nice dinner”,

And by a campfire naked and warm in a starry night,

And on a dark beach walk where a huge turtle slipped into the ocean, and we both got covered in sand…..,

And in a tent on the endless prairie alone and entangled in the middle of the day,

And on a hillside watching meteors fall from the sky,

And on top of a hard won climb eating lunch over the most beautiful fall vista i’ve ever seen,

And playing cards with our children in a boat hanging in the sky,

And sharing guitar music high above my favorite lake,

And watching blue blue water toy with the rocks that we stacked into inukshuks,

And searching a fairy forest for a hidden waterfall we still have yet to find…,

And posing naked in the sun for your camera in the rocky hills of the north shore hoping no one would come upon us,

And seeing your face  when I had your birthday cake written in Russian,

And the evening we laid out on the hexagon dock at the arboretum and you took my picture with the sunset in my hair.

The perfect snowy night when we were TSO virgins.

The moonlit snowshoe adventure.

The cold walks across campus at 3 AM to your warm loft of safety.

The “she likes apples, it's gonna happen” night when we laughed till our stomachs hurt the next day, or week.

The cards against humanity nights that nearly killed us with laughter.

All the times we looked at our children in wonder and amazement and reckless unconditional love.

The night we discovered Big Bang Theory.

Swimming with huge stingrays,

Discovering a rainbow covered land of azaleas.

Sword fighting on the alter.

“I got a rock.”

Snow angels at como park.

Anna playing violin at Eric's wedding.

Lexis joy at her first roundoff back handspring.

Christmas lights in the basement.

Christmas lights in the dorm.

Christmas lights in our bedroom.

Tirza Joy,

Endless walks,

Iced chai,

Chinese in paniers,

Riffling PVC,

Skyline firedance,

October,

A nerd with a bass,

who knew how to get to my house 

which was never a box with a triangle.

It's my favorite part of the day,

driving you.