What's In Front Of Me 2

What's in front of me 2

Why do you still get to be

What is now front of me?

I keep trying to put things there

But my memory just doesn't care.

You give me tunnel vision then

And I just know I miss my friend.

But anger flares within those thoughts

A balanced battle rages hot

Or I don't care, it's isn't there,

Remembering you is just a dare.

There was nothing stable in this dance

Every step was left to chance

I have now both won and lost

And looking back upon the cost

I know i'd do it all again

Risk the risk and friend the friend

But now my choices are taken away

And what a terrible price to pay

I want you back just as you were

A calming, chiding, confiding, blurr

Always at tempo with what I need

To provide the laugh or do the deed.

Anger, loss, and fear beseech

Now that you are out of my reach

So far, so close, your quirks, your ways

Will drive my hurt for endless days.

And that is why I know, you see,

That you are what's in front of me.