River poem

River Poem

My issues take me on a winding path with solutions far outside my grasp

I could write lyrics for an angry band or sink my toes deep in the sand

but what I cannot do is find a way to dry land
I've walked as far as I can go

reasoned as much as I can know

been beaten battered broken torn discovered a new morning after the storm and yet
The skeletons of days gone by

do not clear the fog that covers my eyes and even my baptismal water leaves me high and dry

if only I could fly
So I turn to words as I have before hoping they unlock the door

my keys are there I know they are

I just need to break the bar and drink the jar
I smoke the finest weed you have

rub indifference like a salve
Upon my weeping loins and sinew

reach for compassion deep within you and be new
I haven't turned the time back yet

far enough to just forget

I ache for anonymity

desperate urges fight to be just free

just me
The words are coming faster now
I let them pour I wipe my brow

the drops of sweat now rush and flow come in my mind and deep below and now I know

I cannot show
The desperate anthem of my soul

broken I have been made whole

you join my misery and then

I find myself awake again

and totally spent

the length and depth of the deepest plunge

I soak it up like a crumbled sponge

the depths of my need suddenly wake and full advantage does it take

of your flesh
I've earned the right to call this mine

this flow of words that feels divine

I honor it with every breath I'll take it with me to my death

you'll miss it
For I have crafted every scene that drew my heart right into being

and desperate though I feel right now

my mind begins to know just how

I existed.