Love Story Hosea 7:1-2

Love Story Hosea 7: 1-2
For Tom Trapp who put the salvation back into my story.

That knot in your stomach
That pain in your head
That ache in your mind
That feeling of dread.

You did that to yourself, do you remember?

That guilt on your face
That shame in your walk
That fear in your voice
That leaks out when you talk.

You did that also, do you remember?

You dug into that sin
With both hands and both feet
And you look back now
But you have no retreat.

You did those things to others, do you remember?

You harmed your own body
You slashed your own soul
You fucked your false gods
And piled on the coal.

You did that intentionally, do you remember?

I cried while I watched you,
Smouldered with frustration,
Lashed out in anger
But planned your salvation.

You read that in fascination, do you remember?

Your sin would not permit you
To return to me
And so I bore a savior
Who came to set you free.

You heard that spoken to you, do you remember?

And He is in you
And I am in him
And together we fill you
With Spirit, not sin.

You have accepted that, do you remember?
It's a promise of love forever.

Reckoning

Reckoning
(You know who you are)

I walked the line between ghost and bliss
and no desperate love could have held me back,
but only be I saved by your earnest truth
such as it is,
and find that nothing needing do I lack.

Focus Luke 18:22

Focus

Luke 18:22

Above me I see you

Stretching out your arms

Sobbing your welcome out

To me?

The look on your face

Of agony and suplication

And certainty

Of me?

You knew I'd come

Waited for me to break

Come to you in pieces

Expected me?

You saw my sin

Threw it on your shoulders

Bore all the weight of it

For me?

You watched me walk away

Throw your gift off

And insult you to your face

Was that me?

Yet you hung there

Waiting, watching, praying, loving,

Specifically for me

Just me?

They took you down 

And cried your name 

And when they placed the blame I thought

It's me.

Away you stayed

Yet always there

And grief poured forth

From me.

Till one day

You lifted my eyes

Looked into my face and breathed new life

Into me.

Go you said

Be in sorrow no more

For I have set you free.

Come you said

Release the dead

Walk in my steps

Follow me.

Take Me Back

Take Me Back
For Andy who literaly let me in.

Oh i came before You broken
resistant and in pain,
with torn soul and deceived heart
and aching racing brain.

i lay before You screaming
uncertain and distressed
then threw myself against the wall
desperate and repressed.

Flying, falling, racing down,
toward water black as night:
i found myself upon your beach
filled full of awe and fright.

I took that moment, held it close,
used it to sustain
the hardest and the longest years,
but all of that in vain.

For came the days, I know not how,
the darkness crept right in,
enchanted by its beguiling voice
it swept me into sin.

AGAIN i came before You
broken and afraid
my every atom screaming
to reach out and be saved.

i threw myself upon Your feet
and tried to find Your light,
i cried your name and begged release
desperate to concede the fight.

But my heart heard You loud and clear
demanding i Let Go,
to let your Son take on my burden,
to humbly Let It Go.

I hear you and I give it up
into Your loving arms
to take my rest, let go the load
give up on my own harm.

But AGAIN i come before you
in raw uncertain fear
will i just pick it up again
to try to hold it near?

My soul screams out to let it go
my heart cries spears of pain
my mind can only take so much
before unbridled chaos reigns.

You tell me now to leave it
not pick it up again
to leave it lying in His arms
to try and make amends.

I know this is my moment
to turn and walk away
to walk toward His loving hope
and trust his faithful ways.

To leave this burden lying there
and never pick it up,
leave it to the One who for ME
took up the deadly cup.

And as I turn i must look back
i must be truly sure
that He will carry for me
both my sin and her.

I hear no whisper, see no sign,
can do nought but believe,
that He can wash my sins away
and leave me clean and free.

AGAIN i will come before you
on likely endless roads
to ask myself if You really can
shoulder yet one more load.

i'll lay my head upon Your feet,
i'm getting comfortable there
make you no false promises
but just be laissez faire.

In darkest hour and wildest ride
ill pray to hold you close
remember all Your promises
of which love is the most.

i'll come in shame, i know i will,
in brokenness and fear
resistant, hurt, in writhing pain,
and desperate to be near.

AGAIN ill curl up on your feet
with sobs my body wracked
AGAIN ill feel your arms enfold me
and know you TAKE ME BACK.

Earth's breath

Earth's breath

I need this like i need to breathe, to love, to scream, to cry. Total and complete my need for land for sea and sky.
When perchance a blackbird pass my way, or heron catch my eye,
my constitution is refreshed in body soul and mind.
And when one day my labors end and life has laid me by,
I'll drift away o'er fields of gold to water touching sky.